Getting discharged today. My nipples are already cracked and painful. They keep sticking to my nursing bra and I have to slowly peel it off and wipe them with a warm wet cloth before feeding. I'm pretty sure my latch is okay but why does it hurt so much?
Nurse prescribes Bepanthen for the cracks. MIL tells me that it shouldn't be cracked this early on.
Discharged. Mom requested for us to stop by grandma's so she can see her first great grandchild.
I have an unexplained weight in my heart and a lump in my throat. The smile is still plastered onto my face but I don't feel like a new mother should. Shouldn't she be beaming down at her beautiful baby girl? Why do I feel so detached from her?
Before leaving grandma's house, mom tells me she'll be around the next day. She takes a closer look and asks me if I'm really going to be okay. I say yes, but I can tell she's worried.
The feeling of dread grows the closer we get to home. I want to go back to the hospital. I think I feel safer there.
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